I want an unapologetic guilt free blissfully live my life! I want to stop thinking about what I am supposed to do and just live my life. I want to stop feeling guilty and thinking about the people I’m disappointing with my decisions. I want to stop looking at my body with disgust, looking at all of societies imperfections. I want to be able to fall in love with who ever I want without fear of breaking religious and cultural restrictions. I want to be able to share all the pain in my heart without hearing “this is God’s will” or “God will get you through this”. I want to be able to share my beliefs, without being told I’m wrong. I want to stop always having to be a strong black woman.
Maybe this is just too much to ask for, or I should say fuck it and do me; my constant internal dilemma.