Like most Muslim kids, I was not allowed to celebrate Halloween; actually, in my household, we only celebrated Muslim holidays, Eid and Ramadan. My parents aren’t big holiday people in general, and that was an easy and convenient excuse. Still, as a child, I was shielded from the propaganda machine of the long list of holidays and never felt like I was missing out. Honestly, like my parents, I’m not much of a holiday girl either, except when it comes to my birthday, even then, I’d rather do a celebration on my own. But behind my bubbly and girly exterior, I do have a dark side, and I like the idea of Halloween.
Well, I don’t like the idea of trick or treating or any of the satanic undertones of the day. Still, I love the idea of dressing up and being someone different for the day! As an adult, I can’t recall a Halloween that I genuinely felt like I was having the time of my life. Due to birds of a feather flocking together, I never found my group of people who want to fully get into Halloween with me! This year, I decided, I’m going to embrace my dark side, put on a onesie, and cuddle with my black cat, T’Challah, and either binge horror movies or Sabrina the Teenage Witch. Horror movies and that show were my introduction to my dark side as a little girl, yes, I had to sneak and watch lol. I’m also going to sit and plan the October and spooky season of my dreams moving forward!
I kicked this October off with a Spooky picnic, and we painted pumpkins; it was all of our first time. I found it healing, especially doing it with fellow Muslimahs, who have a similar childhood. I know, that’s something I want to do again. I want to go visit a haunted house, and I want to feel like I’m inside a horror movie. But above all else, I want to dress up and go all out with my costume! I have a list of characters, ranging from sexy to goofy. Still, I finally have the confidence and boldness to be the absolute most, like I desire to be. Insha’Allah, I realize it’s kinda crazy to include Allah (swt) in this shenanigan/dunya goal. Still, I am misunderstood for a reason. I want to do a couple of costumes. But it needs to be the right partner, and until I find him, I plan to enjoy being center stage.
I’m committed to creating the life and experiences I want, and with a little bit of patience, I will get it. I am excited for Halloween this year, simply, but I’m in complete control of the day, and it’s my first Halloween with my baby!
Y’all know some people think I’m a bitch, I proudly call myself Wicked Witch of the East, so of course I have a black cat, it’s all part of the lifestyle.
Last thing, Black cats aren’t bad luck, they’re blessed!
The Misunderstood Afro-Muslimah 
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