Embracing Silence: My Journey to Elevated Self-Discovery

I am fully enjoying my elevated lifestyle, and besides the health benefits, it is a vibe of self-discovery. As a child, I was painfully shy and quiet, eventually becoming just quiet. For the most part, I don’t speak unless I have something to say; I also suffer from social anxiety, which makes me quieter and in my head. I used to dislike that part of myself, and felt the need to perform or become more outspoken. The reality is I am outspoken, just on my terms. I have noticed that I am still a quiet person, elevated or not, but now I feel a sense of comfort with my silence, and no longer the guilt of not performing. 

My people-pleasing days are done, and I enjoy my silence, loudness, but above all else, my peace. I have learned that I am an ambivert but heavier on the introverted side. I enjoy being outside and meeting new people; some days, it is easier to get out of my head than others. But that’s when edibles give me an extra boost to calm my nervous system. Every time I leave the house, I will speak to someone; I find joy in interacting and hearing people’s stories, but it is draining, and I need to recharge in my cocoon. 

That’s where I vibe and tune within. I can break down all of the interactions and thoughts inside my head. Then I can silence my thoughts and tune into an activity or show. Edible does elevate the experience. Call me crazy, but I enjoy suspenseful and triggering television. I find it healing, but it can also put me in a melancholy mood when done sober. But with some elevation and a weighted blanket, it keeps me calm and reminds me I am safe, and not alone, with these experiences. Weirdly, watching and reading triggering content reminds me that I don’t have to live in the pain, and it’s okay to enjoy life. 

I want to experience and try more out of life, a head high boosts my creativity and helps me create experiences to explore. I have learned that I love hiking, animals, and being one with nature. I have always enjoyed swimming, and it has been an escape from stress, so I had to test the experience out with elevations. With swimming, it all depends on my mood, my preference. Still, regardless, the edibles are a perfect muscle recovery when I push myself a bit too much. Then I have my nerdy activities, I enjoy reading, writing, playing chess, and a historical deep dive. With a boost of elevations, I always wonder, what else would I enjoy and should try next? 

This summer, I plan to do every random activity or adventure that pops into my elevated mind. I can’t wait to share the elevated shenanigans I get myself into.